how you feel today
I feel much like I have been spinning wheels.
This has been the most difficult month I have ever had to deal with
I hope and pray I never have to face anything like this again
As if often the case, along with immeasurable loss
has come a new beginning for me…
and I am looking forward with much excitement
this is from a few years ago
the boys had static electricity from going down the slide
So Joe was giving them a bit of a shock by touching their noses.
You can really see Jack’s hair sticking up
This is my father and I -probably around 1978 or 79.
My cousin posted it on a facebook page, which was awesome
because I had never seen it before.
He died in 1981 when I was just 18 years old
so it’s really sweet to have this picture of us together
I have been doing my first week of training in Watertown.
It’s only about 20 miles but it takes about an hour to get there in traffic.
I have to either through or around Boston…
The view from the roof of the parking structure is beautiful.
I park up there even though I am there early enough to park on the ground floor.
Today I am at the center where I will be working!
I am so happy to be able to take the T and not have to drive!
It’s been rainy and grey most of the week but the temps. have been warm.
The daffodils are pushing up near the back steps..
little green shoots of hope
I am loving the time change. It’s so nice to have it still be light in the evenings.
Every morning I see the school bus pull into the lowlands parking lot at 7:15. It waits there for 5 or 10 minutes and then starts picking up the island teenagers and bringing them into school on the mainland. Back when I was young enough to be getting on that bus I couldn’t imagine any kind of pleasure in looking at the same thing every morning for the rest of my life. Now I love to see that yellow bus. I love to see the seasons change around it…the field behind it green and yellow and brown and back to green again..filled with geese or seagulls or misty fog or snow. All is right with the world again this day. Our own individual worlds may have been blown apart during the night but the world around us is still rocking just the way it should be and when we are ready…we can step back in.
I have a beautiful purple Hyacinth on my desk.
just the one bloom
which with hyacinths is enough
all through this horrible week its scent has wafted over everything
I had a vision/daydream of Ashley in the market on Saturday
she was laughing
when I got home my daughter, Bonnie, texted me to say
that she had dreamed of Ashley surrounded by good energy
birds on the wire
in the early morning sky
inside my favorite place on a rainy day
last week I got a fb message from a woman who spent some time in the same treatment center as Ashley. She told me that Ashley had helped her in many ways. That Ash had been a light in the darkness for her. She said that Ashly was a very special person and that Ahsley’s death rocked her to the core. Her words brought me some comfort. It is nice to know that even in her own turmoil Ashley was able to reach out and help some one else.
We had those boys with us this weekend. Oh my goodness I laughed so darn hard!
Every evening at sunset I listen to Pink Floyd sing Shine on You Crazy Diamond.
your story is one of strength
girl who once sat at the hearth of my life
your story was darkness and light
when you were young we played
don’t step on the cracks
and I held your hand
now your steps are amethyst sparks
on the ground
where we once walked
can you still play this game in your oblivion
your mirthful and defiant spirit
will always be a part of my story